Letting Go

I am trying to let go, but its so hard. I know with time it gets easy but right now time is so far away, and I feel like I have something so heavy on my heart that's stopping me from breathing.

I think he got the message and he probably thinks its the best way out as well. We would never have the courage to say to each others face that we need to end things.

I always imagined what I would say when things came to an end, but I knew deep down that I would never have the guts to actually say it to his face out loud.

Who knows maybe its not the end but it sure feels like it. I hope I get through this again and reach the other side with my sanity intact, otherwise I will never be the same again

Dear god help me be strong.